Thursday 31 August 2017

Saying Goodbye to 17

Hey there fellow writers and bookworms! So this blog will be a bit different as I turned 18 a few weeks ago and I will be sharing some of my hopes, dreams and everything in between!


I had been waiting for my 18th for such a long time and here it was, right in front of me. For some reason I'm scared of it - I'm finally an adult and I'm still figuring my life out. Going out there and finding what you want to do is scary. But what's terrifying is never going after your dreams and then regretting it.


In the past year I have overcome anxiety struggles, managed to travel on tubes alone, had several jobs I wasn't happy in and started a blog. This past year has been a roller coaster of tears, fears and hoping and praying.

In the past year I've traveled to Portugal, Ibiza and New York with my partner and see some wonderful sights. I can't wait to travel more in the future.


I have also started this blog and an Instagram to keep me busy and improve my writing. I have been on a writing course, I became a writing intern and I am writing more than ever.

I've lost friends and gained new, better ones. I've made up with people I never thought I would and I've come to realise that these things take time to heal. Wounds are being stitched up and there's better days to come.

Goals for the year ahead

My goals for this year include to be happy and to take care of myself more than I ever have before. I am planning my future without procrastinating and I'm taking care of my mental health by pushing myself to go out and have some me time. I love the freedom that comes with realising you can do anything you put your mind to.

Another goal for this year is to start saving for mine and my boyfriend's future together. I am making sure I treat myself but I'm also saving for rainy days and the future ahead.


I want to see my family happy and healthy and I also want to travel even more if I have the funds.

I'm also thinking of taking driving lessons and I'm really excited about that!


Overall, this year has been hard but rewarding and I can't wait to embark on a new year and a new life as the true me.

Tuesday 22 August 2017

Top Ten Poems from Milk and Honey

Hey guys!

So this week I have been reading Rupi Kaur's Milk and Honey, a poetry book of how to survive and heal. To me, this poetry is raw and emotional. It isn't sugarcoated or punctuated because it doesn't need to be for the very real reason that Rupi has poured her heart into her work. Here is a list of my top ten favourite poems from Milk and Honey, and why they are my favourites.

Poem One

love is not cruel
we are cruel
love is not a game
we have made a game
out of love

I think this is beautifully sad because it's true; we have made a game out of tearing others down and sometimes things don't work out because of it.

Poem Two 

other women's bodies
are not our battlegrounds

We need to learn to respect women and stop tearing each other down; we are all going through this thing called life and having people bully us is not going to get them anywhere. It just shows how miserable those people are to have to tear others down for their own enjoyment.


Poem Three

sex takes the consent of two
if one person is lying there not doing anything
cause they are not ready
or not in the mood
or simply don't want to
yet the other is having sex
with their body it's not love
it is rape

This is so important. Rupi talks openly about rape in her poetry and she pours her heart into her work. If someone doesn't want to have sex, and the other does, it is rape. It's that simple. It is rape.


Poem Four

i do not want to have you
to fill the empty parts of me
i want to be full on my own
i want to be so complete
i could light a whole city
and then
i want to have you
cause the two of us combined
could set it on fire

This is one of the most beautiful poems in my opinion. Rupi is saying that we should all learn to love ourselves and be able to be on our own, but it's even better to have someone by your side.

Poem Five

i need someone
who knows struggle
as well as i do
someone
willing to hold my feet in their lap
on days it is too difficult to stand
the type of person who gives
exactly what i need
before i even know i need it
the type of lover who hears me
even when i do not speak
is the type of understanding
i demand
                    - the type of lover i need

This poem is saying what every person wants in a relationship and what we need. We need someone to understand us and be with us even on the worst days of our lives. We need someone who will know we're upset before we even speak; someone who will always be there no matter how hard the road gets.

Poem Six

every time you
tell your daughter
you yell at her
out of love
you teach her to confuse
anger with kindness
which seems like a good idea
till she grows up to
trust men who hurt her
cause they look so much
like you
              - to fathers with daughters

This one really hits home for me. I've had bad relationships because of my relationship with men and not having any male role models to look up to. I didn't have a fatherly figure. This is true - when you yell at your child "out of love" you are damaging her future relationships and giving her trust issues - especially with men.


Poem Seven

the thing
worth holding on to
would not have let go

This poem is so simple yet it touches a nerve. If someone doesn't make the effort to be in your life, to fight for you, then they are not worth your time, energy or tears.

Poem Eight

when you are broken
and he has left you
do not question
whether you were
enough
the problem was
you were so enough
he was not able to carry it

He couldn't handle you at your worst, so don't let him see you at your best. You deserve someone who is going to be able to be there on your bad days and who will have a blast with you on the good.

Poem Nine

i had to leave
i was tired of
allowing you to
make me feel
anything less
than whole

Have enough self respect and dignity to walk away when you deserve to be treated better.

Poem Ten

it takes grace
to remain kind
in cruel situations

Such a simple yet effective message. Rise above those who are cruel and learn to counteract that cruelty with kindness.

So there you have it! Some of my favourite inspirational poems from Rupi Kaur's Milk and Honey. I can't wait for the release of her latest poetry book, The Sun and her Flowers!

Tell me in the comments some of your favourite poems!

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Sunday 13 August 2017

Book review #8: The Wolves of Mercy Falls Trilogy by Maggie Stiefvater

Well hello there fellow book addicts! In this week's blog I will be reviewing my favourite trilogy ever written...


About

In this week's blog I have decided to write about my favourite book series which is The Wolves of Mercy Falls trilogy by Maggie Stiefvater, the queen of fantasy writing. This series I hold close to my heart and I'm here to tell you all what you're missing...

Here's a blurb of the first book: "For years, Grace has watched the wolves in the woods. Especially the yellow-eyed beast whose chilling presence she can't seem to live without. Every winter she watches him, but every summer, he disappears... Sam leads two lives. In winter, he stays in the frozen woods, with the protection of the pack. In summer, he has a few precious months to be human, until the cold makes him shift back again. When Grace and Sam finally meet, they realize they can't bear to be apart. But can they find a way to stay together as the stakes grow higher and death comes closing in?"

As the books go on, Grace's love for Sam increases despite her parents' disapproval. Isabel and Cole St Clair also get mixed into the whirlwind that is Sam and Grace's relationship and with the wolves of Mercy Falls.

I don't want to spoil the books for you. So I won't disclose any more.


Review

As you can probably tell, I loved this series and can't recommend it enough. Especially to those who enjoy fantasy and romance novels.

Stiefvater transported me to Mercy Falls and I hadn't read anything in ages that had consumed me as much as this trilogy did. Sam and Grace's romance reminded me of my own and their unconditional love for each other was written with nothing but emotion and truth. They are my OTP (one true pairing for those of you who don't know. And to remind me what it means before I forget and have to Google it again) and I have never read about a couple who are more suited to each other than these two. I love Cole and Isabel's relationship but it's built mostly on frustration with each other! (I can't wait to read Sinner, the spin off about Cole St Clair and Isabel Culpepper.)

Aside from the well written romance, I enjoyed reading a fantasy novel and hadn't read any in ages in fear they would be childish and filled with too many facts and myths to remember. However, The Wolves of Mercy Falls exceeded my expectations (alright for a £5 buy, eh?) and set a very high bar for other books. (Don't worry, Maggie, nothing will beat it!)

The main reason this series hit me so hard was because I could understand Grace's pain of not being able to be with Sam, not being able to live her life with him. I can understand how that feels and Sam and Grace's relationship gave me hope that my partner and I will live together one day; I wasn't alone and I'd like to thank Maggie for that.

Ultimately, if you're looking for a series you can binge on, that you pray will be turned into a TV series, and that you can laugh and cry at, this is it. Have fun and don't forget to tell me what you thought of the books! (By the way, aren't the covers beautiful?!)

You can buy the series here.

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Sunday 6 August 2017

Poetry Corner: A Poem By Me

Hello there everyone! In today's blog I will be sharing with you a poem I finished and which I'm quite proud of! I have recently got more into poetry as I bought Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur. I have analysed poetry before but I never think my work is good enough.

Without further ado, here is my completed poem.

                           
                                                                   Safety Net

Your skin smells like
A home I've never known
A safety net in
A world of falling
A constant in                                                                  
A life unknown

You aren't an anchor
That pulls me down
You are the light
That guides me home

You are a wildfire 
Setting light to dead grass
You are time
Consuming it and
Giving it
New meaning


I know it's a rather short blog today but I hope you guys enjoyed it. Let me know what you think in the comments and don't forget to follow my Instagram: neurotic.writer.ramblings